pauses

There are times that you intentionally slow down and take the leisurely way. And then there are times when you are racing across town and hit the tracks right as the train does. 

I often forget to slow down a bit in my haste to accomplish, but I am now spending my fifth straight day in my bed (well to be fair I spent the first 3 with a heavy mix between the bedroom and bathroom) I’ve had time to pause. And these are reflections from my days:

The world does not stop functioning because you aren’t there to take care of things. I’m not the only one capable of doing what needs to be done. A good reminder from God that He has blessed me with roles where I can strive, but one He calls me from one to the next, things will not fall apart. Not that I’m advocating shirking responsibilities just because it works out okay, but just gently reminding myself I’m truly only valuable where God places me and uses me.

I still need to pray for growth in the area of caring for others. Steven cares for me with a deep selflessness, only pushing me when it’s for my good. I often struggle with the selflessness when the roles are flipped getting easily burnt out when taking on both roles.  I have been praying God continue to grow in me my heart of compassion for those who are sick and weak, especially in my own home.

Being sick is really when you miss having cable TV. There haven’t been too many minutes that I’ve wished to come home and flip on a television since we decided not to move our TV into our little apartment, but when you are on your fifth day of being sick and third day being home alone, you could really use a Law and Order marathon.

Weakness creates it very hard not to be dependent. I have spent a lot of time praying for healing over the last 5 days but even more time praying that I would trust God more. Some brief scares over worst case scenarios and waiting for lab results, and there is nothing you can do but cry out to God and know that we have Father who cares deeply. 

Most of what I stress about is not important. Often what works me up are temporary, matters of preference type issues. God has been faithful to remind me to focus on what is eternal–matters of the heart. Many projects, duties in life are routine and necessary to keep things functioning, but they shouldn’t take the place or priority of greater things.

Taco pizza always sounds good when you’re sick. Taco pizza and ice cream :)

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

xmas card

With a new year comes many of us returning to the blogosphere with plenty of good intentions.

Since Steven and I have so much family in so many different places, we decided to try doing a Christmas letter this year. Normally that’s more fun when you have kids to show off and talk about it, so we kept it short. There are really only so many interesting things you can share about two 25 year olds.

Check out our xmas letter if you want the quick review of 2012!

this is love…

ImageMy husband digging in the dumpster to get something I just said I wanted thrown out 10 minutes prior. (To be fair I suddenly realized I could re-purpose something that I wanted thrown out in our office redo, so I’m not that capricious!)

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Steven and I try to live a healthy lifestyle, but we just get busy. And sometimes I just get lazy about doing the right things.

Here are things I need to put more effort into doing:

-Eating fruits and vegetables (inspired by this post)
Steven got on board with me and we purchased pineapple, kiwis, apples, bananas, spinach, carrots and green peppers. I will be freezing the pineapple and leftover bananas for smoothies and the rest we will eat fresh. I also always keep stocked on the bagged steamable veggies for quick dinners.

-Getting more calcium (drink more milk, eat more yogurt)
I need to find clever ways to get calcium. I know some vegetables like broccoli  can help when I am not the best about drinking milk every day.

-Drinking more water
When I have a water bottle on my desk at work, I generally do pretty well, but weekends don’t go as well.  And, when I am away from my desk, I am not consistent in getting the necessary water.

-Flossing
I do well right before and right after going to the dentist. But then I get lazy. And we don’t want to pay for any fillings!

couch to 5k update

We are almost 4 weeks down. Celebrated our 3 week victory at pizza. But we still don’t love running :)

How we are feeling after an evening run

spring break-a little late!

It never fails. When Steven and I go somewhere, we always forget something. Well for our spring break trip, it was my camera!

More than a month ago now, Steven and I decided to take a three day weekend of a brief getaway. We didn’t travel far, as we just went to the east border of Iowa to Dubuque, but it was just far enough for us to take a break from our normal day to day. We really love getting to stay in hotels, exploring new places and eating good food. It’s so relaxing for me not to have a to do list, a place to clean or any cooking to do. Here are some pictures from Steven’s phone, and you will be able to tell just how important the good food is to us! (I scoped out reviews before we left and had a list of local restaurants to give a try.)

 

First stop of the day: coffee shop for drinks, scone and bagel

Sharing a black cherry, coke float at an old time soda fountain

Lunch at Durty Gurt’s in downtown Galena

The burger we shared; toppings included coleslaw and french fries

Look out in Dubuque where you can see Illinois, Iowa and Wisconsin

Our only picture together from the weekend while enjoying the weather at Eagle Point Park

instant gratification

I am not patient. Ask my husband. I love to see instant results.

Why do I struggle to keep a good work routine? Well, I don’t see results right away. I become discouraged and find other ways to spend my time.

Steven has been working on projects for me to redo the office. And, those kind of projects always take longer than I envision. I get impatient. Wanting to seen quick change without taking the time to put in the work.

And often this is how I feel in my walk with Christ. There are areas I see a need for change, areas where I struggle. And I just want to see the change as soon as I acknowledge it. Yet, I know that God is continue to sanctify me day by day. I often want to follow a three step approach to change this behavior or change that attitude, and that is just not how it works. Paul’s words to the church in Philippi, “And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” (Philippians 1:6) It has very little to do with what I do, as God is doing the work in me. I just need to get on board and allow God to work in me. Be guided by His Spirit, seek Him and depend on Him. And it may not come with a quick, easy fix.

Steven and I have recently been having conversations about becoming more holy rather than more happy.  The prayer for God to transform us is a scary prayer. Do I really know what I am asking Him to do? He is good, always. But often I want good to equate  good with easy, comfortable, in my plan. His good work in me may not mean more days of I think I want or what comes easy to me. The path may be difficult. But God refines us through the fire.  (1 Peter 1:6-7 “In this you rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, you have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of your faith–more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire–may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ.”)

So I pray that God will continue to transform me and give me perseverance not give up, throw up my hands and be frustrated with my human tendencies, but know he will complete His good work in me and for His glory.


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