There are times that you intentionally slow down and take the leisurely way. And then there are times when you are racing across town and hit the tracks right as the train does.
I often forget to slow down a bit in my haste to accomplish, but I am now spending my fifth straight day in my bed (well to be fair I spent the first 3 with a heavy mix between the bedroom and bathroom) I’ve had time to pause. And these are reflections from my days:
The world does not stop functioning because you aren’t there to take care of things. I’m not the only one capable of doing what needs to be done. A good reminder from God that He has blessed me with roles where I can strive, but one He calls me from one to the next, things will not fall apart. Not that I’m advocating shirking responsibilities just because it works out okay, but just gently reminding myself I’m truly only valuable where God places me and uses me.
I still need to pray for growth in the area of caring for others. Steven cares for me with a deep selflessness, only pushing me when it’s for my good. I often struggle with the selflessness when the roles are flipped getting easily burnt out when taking on both roles. I have been praying God continue to grow in me my heart of compassion for those who are sick and weak, especially in my own home.
Being sick is really when you miss having cable TV. There haven’t been too many minutes that I’ve wished to come home and flip on a television since we decided not to move our TV into our little apartment, but when you are on your fifth day of being sick and third day being home alone, you could really use a Law and Order marathon.
Weakness creates it very hard not to be dependent. I have spent a lot of time praying for healing over the last 5 days but even more time praying that I would trust God more. Some brief scares over worst case scenarios and waiting for lab results, and there is nothing you can do but cry out to God and know that we have Father who cares deeply.
Most of what I stress about is not important. Often what works me up are temporary, matters of preference type issues. God has been faithful to remind me to focus on what is eternal–matters of the heart. Many projects, duties in life are routine and necessary to keep things functioning, but they shouldn’t take the place or priority of greater things.
Taco pizza always sounds good when you’re sick. Taco pizza and ice cream :)